Saturday, November 12, 2011

My Papa is in a Nursing Home

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by admin on October 27, 2010

My grandfather, I call him Papa who is my moms dad, was admitted to a Nursing Home about 6 weeks ago. I have been to visit him about 4 times since hes been there. I would have been more often, but since my van was in the shop for 3 weeks I was unable to make the one hr drive. I wanted to blog about this because I'm having trouble with it and feel I need to just get it all out.  It makes me VERY sad to see him living there. It makes me sad to see anyone living in a Nursing home. I think the Ideal way to live when your old is with your children or a loving family member in a real home. I know thou alot of times that situation isn't possible. Nursing homes are such lonely places. I'm glad that hes in the nicest nursing home in his town. I wish I was allowed to take him out to eat , to church or to a movie again. He told me because of insurance reasons he cant leave unless hes under the care of the nursing home staff. I know he sometimes gets to go to Walmart to shop with the nursing home staff. The day before he went to the nursing home I took him to see a movie. He really enjoyed it. 

 He told me the first time I went to visit him that he didn't want to live anymore. He said hes ready to go. But I don't want him to go. Hes the only gpa I have. My other gpa died when I was 7 yrs old. I don't even remember him. My Papa and mama divorced after 40 yrs of marriage. After being married to another women for 7 or 8 yrs he divorced her and remarried my mama. Six months later they got an annulment. So he doesn't have a wife to take care of him. I know my mama still loves him. I know she always will. None of my family members are able to stay home during the day to care for him so the only two choices are a nursing home or his own apt with a full time nurse or caregiver.  I don't know what a full time nurse or caregiver would cost but I'm guessing its as expensive as a nursing home. I'm going to go see him as much as I can. I hope he gets to come to Family Christmas this year.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Training to Run

This may bore anyone reading this but I'm going to write it cause its about ME and this is MY Blog!  Eight years ago I was in a car accident and broke my Right thigh bone in half. Since then I have not been able to RUN.  I had been walking and running for the past 25 or so years and I have to do what?? Learn to walk again!!! What a Hard thing for me to wrap my mind around. I will never forget the first time I got out of the hospital bed to sit in a potty chair next to my bed and could hardly move any part of my body especially my legs. My left leg was badly bruised. I lost  alot of muscle in my Right leg due to the way it broke. To fix the break I ended up with a metal rod inside my leg from my hip to my knee.  During weather changes Its True I hurt more.. NO lie.. I can feel a difference. In middle school I ran track my 8th grade year.. Loved running but I was the second slowest on my team :)  Its OK.. I did the best I could. I knew the others were better than me and I was OK with that. I just loved running! I also played soccer my 8th and 9th grade year. Again, I sucked at that that sport to. Hey at least I tried right! The summer after graduating High school I went to the track at the middle school and ran alot.  I loved to run when I was stressed!! Lately I have thought of the time I spent on that track at Delay Middle school and sometimes wish I could go back in time and be that young girl again with out a broken leg. My goal is to run in an organized race for some good cause sometime next year. Right now I cant run more than 2 mins with out feeling like my leg is going to give out.
So what I have to do is build muscle up in my leg. Good thing is my husband has one of those huge weight machines that is buried in the garage under a bunch of junk. we are going to clean it off so I can use it. It will especially come in handy this winter when its to cold to run outside. I will blog about my progress from time to time.